alone

Once again I had to realise, how fucking bloody lonely I am.
I'm always there for everybody, I listen to them for hours everytime someone is sad or has a problem, I give advice, I console, I do everything I can to make them smile again.
Yeah, all you bloody stupid shitty idiots!
Where are you now, when I am sad and down?
As long as I'm the happy, smiling party-girl, I have heaps of "friends"... Yeah, but where are they now?

As soon as the have a new love, I'm not interesting anymore. Nevermind that I'm about to go crazy and I need nothing more than a FRIEND at the moment!

It hurts so bad, I can't describe it. Everything is falling down on me at the moment.

Seiously, I don't know how I can take all this shit any longer.
I feel seriously depressed again, crying all the time, whatever. Where is the light????